...because never have I been filled with any kind of hatred. Leave aside the amount I feel today. Someone tried to hurt my spirit.....suffocate it. The damage was slight, reparable but unforgettable. Unpardonable.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Monday, July 19, 2010
There are these moments.....
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A page from my diary,
Musings,
realisation
...when you are so tired, dying to hit the bed. And when you do, you realise you are too tired to even fall asleep!!
...when you wish you could change the direction in which your life is drifting....
...when things go so well you wonder whats wrong!
...when things go so so well that you need to pinch yourself to know its real.
...when things you are confident of doing well screw up royally and what you fear you won't manage goes fantastically well
...when you wished you looked in your photographs as nice as others look in theirs!!
...when you wished you could shed in a night the pounds you gathered over a year....aargh
...when you wish you could change the direction in which your life is drifting....
...when things go so well you wonder whats wrong!
...when things go so so well that you need to pinch yourself to know its real.
...when things you are confident of doing well screw up royally and what you fear you won't manage goes fantastically well
...when you wished you looked in your photographs as nice as others look in theirs!!
...when you wished you could shed in a night the pounds you gathered over a year....aargh
Passed...
...my DA exam with 68.66%. First in my class :)
I know it doesn't sound nice but I must thank many people for my success
Nagesh......for being OK with me staying far during my prep leave, for encouraging, for tolerating my tears and many months of tea and toast for breakfast especially when I overslept post calls or post late night studies.
Mom....for encouraging, being my stress buster and tolerating my moods.
Ma In Law....for good wishes, for hey prayers, her support when I was studying and busy neglecting home duties, for tolerating a student bahu
My teachers for guiding, mentoring even scolding and moulding...
My HOD Dr. Iyer and Prof Dr. Indrani for their encouraging feedback during the vivas. Facing the DNB interviews in front of a gang of 4 strangers I realize how important it is to have a familiar face during vivas and times of stress....
My buddies Aditi and Nitin, my partners in studying, my partners for dinners, lunches, teas and for chillaxing during times of stress....
My buddies Kshiteeja and Rashmi for dropping in for destressing, for encouragement, for help during exams in many ways that are beyond words....
Smt. Anagha Lele, Aditi's mom for sending tasty home cooked meals every day for 2 whole months to ease our hostel stay and make it tolerable!
Mumbai Dabbawalas for getting us on time our lunches :D
I may have missed some names now and will edit the post when needed!!
I know it doesn't sound nice but I must thank many people for my success
Nagesh......for being OK with me staying far during my prep leave, for encouraging, for tolerating my tears and many months of tea and toast for breakfast especially when I overslept post calls or post late night studies.
Mom....for encouraging, being my stress buster and tolerating my moods.
Ma In Law....for good wishes, for hey prayers, her support when I was studying and busy neglecting home duties, for tolerating a student bahu
My teachers for guiding, mentoring even scolding and moulding...
My HOD Dr. Iyer and Prof Dr. Indrani for their encouraging feedback during the vivas. Facing the DNB interviews in front of a gang of 4 strangers I realize how important it is to have a familiar face during vivas and times of stress....
My buddies Aditi and Nitin, my partners in studying, my partners for dinners, lunches, teas and for chillaxing during times of stress....
My buddies Kshiteeja and Rashmi for dropping in for destressing, for encouragement, for help during exams in many ways that are beyond words....
Smt. Anagha Lele, Aditi's mom for sending tasty home cooked meals every day for 2 whole months to ease our hostel stay and make it tolerable!
Mumbai Dabbawalas for getting us on time our lunches :D
I may have missed some names now and will edit the post when needed!!
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Dissppointment
Over the past 7-8 years I have developed this knack for handling vivas, its a challenge for me to have one better than the last one. Post ending exams, prelims, university exams......
Today was sort of antithesis, a viva, rather an interview which was not upto my "Varsha Standards". My DA exam viva was good, rocking good actually. This was rock bottom!!
Hope I do better next time.......and seize the next opportunity
Today was sort of antithesis, a viva, rather an interview which was not upto my "Varsha Standards". My DA exam viva was good, rocking good actually. This was rock bottom!!
Hope I do better next time.......and seize the next opportunity
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Natarang
I know I am late, but what an amazing movie!! Awesome songs, music, direction, actors, story...everything. The movie has it all in a short span without too many unnecessary details. A landmark movie in the Marathi commercial cinema which has just recently managed to get out of raunchy senseless and repetitive humour..
Spellbound!!
Spellbound!!
Monday, July 12, 2010
YUMMY
yummy. Ate yummy Vada Pav and Pani Puri!!
Yay Yay
Sorry, this is not blog material, I may be sound like I am updating my facebook profile!!
Yay Yay
Sorry, this is not blog material, I may be sound like I am updating my facebook profile!!
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Sunday, July 04, 2010
Now what
The uncertainty is here. All the while I was eagerly awaiting the day when I finish my DA and embark on a new journey...my future education. Now that my exam is through, suddenly I feel lost. Qualified yes, confident...well quite. Future, not dark but hazy.
While I was still in Nair, the future was still as hazy as it is now. But atleast I belonged somewhere. Now while my security blanket of belonging is gone, the vision ahead is not clear...atleast not yet.
If someone were to ask me what is one thing that I most want right now, covet the most right now is the knowledge and assurance that my chance to further education is secured. That I would get into a good institute for my DNB as soon as possible. That all will be fine and I won't be left groping about in the dark. Life has given me all that I have wanted, always after a small wait, as a surprise when things seemed not to be going too well. Is this one more of those times........iska jawab to samay hi dega!!
While I was still in Nair, the future was still as hazy as it is now. But atleast I belonged somewhere. Now while my security blanket of belonging is gone, the vision ahead is not clear...atleast not yet.
If someone were to ask me what is one thing that I most want right now, covet the most right now is the knowledge and assurance that my chance to further education is secured. That I would get into a good institute for my DNB as soon as possible. That all will be fine and I won't be left groping about in the dark. Life has given me all that I have wanted, always after a small wait, as a surprise when things seemed not to be going too well. Is this one more of those times........iska jawab to samay hi dega!!
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